About Matthew

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I’m Matthew McMullin and I’m here to support you through your journey to self-love.

I haven’t always loved myself. In fact, I spent most of my youth down a destructive spiral of drugs and alcohol to cope with my pain and trauma. Until one day, I had an epiphany that helped me realize I am worthy of love, forgiveness, and self-empowerment—and so are you.

My journey inspired me to guide others suffering in silence and misunderstood to finally realize their truth. I still get judged immediately by my tattoos and blunt demeanor, but others no longer hold power over me because of the strong spiritual, physical, and emotional connection I have with myself.

I understand just because I’ve been through a hard time doesn’t mean I know exactly what you’re going through. But I’ll guide you, support you, and cheer you on until you’re able to do so for yourself, using the same methods that helped me get to where I am today.
In the beginning…
I was the youngest in a family of 11 kids. My early childhood was happy, until the age of 11 when I was sexually abused. From that point on, I fantasized daily about suicide, even attempting it at ages 16, 19, and 20, all the while drowning my pain in heroin and just about every other drug in existence. I felt unheard and misunderstood by professionals who I was supposed to “trust”. Until one day, I realized I was worthy of love just like everyone else.
And then…
While I finally understood my self-value, I just couldn’t get there yet. I still felt extremely misunderstood by the people around me. Because I couldn’t find the love I needed from the people in my life, I couldn’t shake my self-hatred.
My breakthrough…
About a month after my last suicide attempt, I experienced a night where I couldn't even recognize myself anymore. While examining myself in the mirror, two life-changing thoughts hit me—I am a son of God, and I'm lucky to still be alive.
But then…
The tools I was using to heal just weren’t aligning with a true sense of self-worth. Therapy was still ineffective, and I felt like I had nowhere and nobody to turn to. I completed 9 months of rehab at Acqua Recovery, which helped, but it wasn’t giving me the tools I needed to truly accept myself.
Resolution…
I ultimately found the key within myself to reach a point of self-healing. It was only by letting myself be completely vulnerable and feeling my emotions fully that I reached the point of self-love. I realized acceptance can only come from within, and not from society’s view of you. Now I feel called to help others down a similar path to find the self-love inside themselves and stand strong in their power.
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What I Believe

I was searching for
acceptance in society’s eyes

Before my breakthrough, I was searching for acceptance in society’s eyes. But society told me I’m a hard ass with tattoos, that being blunt is only an expression of anger, that life experience can’t teach you, that self-love is narcissistic or doesn’t exist, and most of all that I’m not worthy of it. It was only by getting in touch with my body and emotions, practicing vulnerability and gratitude, and believing in a higher power, that I finally achieved self-love. And through active listening and guidance, I’ll help you do the same.
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Ready to break through your self-doubt and reach self-love?

Contact me today.